I hope everyone enjoys (or enjoyed as the case stands since this post is late) their Thanksgiving. It was great being able to spend him with family. My mom cooked all of the family favorites, including Turkey and green being casserole. She's even gone as far as to start putting up Christmas. There's a saying that "Christmas comes when you need it the most." I am beginning to believe that. This season remind us that there's always hope in the midst of joy AND sorrow. know why, but the above YouTube clip categorizes this season of my life right now.
Okay, So it appears I'm slightly behind again with my posts. Since it's Friday, I thought I would do something a little bit entertainment related. Recently the DVD world released a updated version of a romantic classic entitled Ice Castles. For those unfamiliar, this story followers the journey of up-and-coming skating star, Lexi Winston. In the beginning, Lexi gives up everything in an effort to pursue her dream professionally, but her faith is tested when accident leaves her blind. In the original version, released in 1978, was written by Donald Wrye (screenplay), Gary L. Baim (screenplay ) as well as several others; it included such stars as Lynn-Holly Johnson, Robby Benson and Colleen Dewhurst . More information can be found on the original movie release here: http://farm.imdb.com/title/tt0077716/
On the other hand, I feel the updated version doesn't do it justice. Although it starts the newest face in skating, Taylor Firth, I think it forgets the main point of overcoming what obstacles may come in life. I was surprised to learn however that Firth is a outspoken Christian and she credits God for her talent. Something most people don't do these days. You can find out more about her faith in the article:
Hey Guys, I realize it's been a while since I've updated my Roll Call-a list of disabled websites of all different perspectives. That being said, I came across this website and it provides an extensive list to help you get started. I will eventually integrate some of them into my list. Watch for updates!
It's the beginning of another week and while I should be refreshed-I feel like I'm just hanging on. The strange thing is, I had a wonderful weekend with my family. On Saturday my mom decided to take some time out for her self and get a manicure and pedicure while dad and I ran a few errands. Now I'm not much for shopping especially when it comes to buying tire gauges to check our wheel pressure for the Van, etc.. But I did manage to make the best of it by asking to go to go out to lunch and the paper store, I can't think of its name right now. I needed to get computer paper as well as I happened to come across some cool Christmas cards and stationery for the upcoming year.
It's been a busy couple of months lately and I'm excited to share my accomplishments with everyone; although, many may already know about. The road to drive my wheelchair r has certainly been a long and difficult journey, altogether, we calculated it's been at least nine years since I've been able to drive myself. So, yes it's a big accomplishment! But still, why do I find it so hard to be happy? I mean, I'm so grateful to God that this finally happened, but I don't know. It's like I've changed somehow.
As humans, we have a tendency to try and fill such voids of sadness with material things. (mine is shopping,) But it never works. The impact of shopping is only temporary and only serves as an band aid. The only real cure for these feelings of inadequacy and loneliness is a closer walk with Jesus Christ. This involves being honest with oneself and admitting your true feelings. That's the part I have trouble with some times because I have a habit of dismissing them until it's too late.
Anyway, it's been a lot like that lately for me. For that reason, I was surprised when I went to church and I got emotional. The worship team at my church followed a new arraignment to a classic hymn, "It Is Well With My Soul". I have included the YouTube link here:
As I will be (or have been already since I'm writing this post a little later) to the dentist, I thought my readers might appreciate this website link. This website clearly explains why children with CP have a hard time at the dentist since they have a tendency to move around in an effort to try and relax their muscles.
This week has been an easy one for me; yet, I have trouble being thankful. Here I am, coming off the greatest accomplishment of my life in a couple of years and I don't feel anything. ( For those that are new readers, my latest accomplishment is being able to drive my wheelchair). Believe me, I am blessed and I know it-logically. But I'm just not feeling it. It's frustrating, because I see my friends having a lot more struggles and difficulties. But they're dealing with it with grace and peace. Why can't I be like that? What's holding me back? That's the question I keep asking myself.
I reached another milestone today-I am driving my wheelchair again! Not without a few adjustments of course. The doul is back doing its job, keeping my arm in line with the joystick. The joystick was repositioned on the inside of my armrest so that I don't have to stretch out so far. Everyone is ecstatic though, with the progress I've made thus far. But it feels good.. I still need some practice with my right turns though: it seems like going out is much easier than going in with my arms these days
Okay~ Since my last post was that of a personal nature, I don't really think it qualifies for my disability entry for the day. But this certainly does. I first became aware of the story because I happened to be watching Dr. Phil today. It involves the father of a 12-year-old girl getting arrested for defending her against bullies. Granted, a father should go through the appropriate channels (like the school, authorities) but from what I understand he didn't get results.. For more information, I have included the article below. http://thefreshxpress.com/2010/09/father-defends-disabled-daughter-against-bullies/
On the one hand, I applaud the father for defending his daughter. But he took it way too far and even he acknowledges that.
It's been approximately three months since my surgery: since then, I have seen positive outcomes of my left arm. (an increase my range as well as beginning to to using my joystick) Lately, though, I can't help but feel my progress is slowing. Not only do I have what feels like electric pulses going through my arm on a daily basis, but it has become increasingly difficult for me to wear my night splint at night. But still, I persevere. Doctors told me to expect that eventually my arm would want to return to their original position, I can only assume that's what's my muscles are trying to accomplish. I know I probably have nothing to worry about since I'm going to therapy and doing practically everything I'm told and more..
I've come so far and I don't want to think about going back. It's just hard feeling things you haven't been accustomed to and not knowing what they mean. Either way, I will bring it up with the OT when I see her on Wednesday.
Until then please keep me in your prayers.
Debbie
PS. I'm sorry if I worried any of my readers by writing this, but I just needed to get my feelings off my chest. Acknowledge them and I hoped that I would feel better It's just weird, when you know your arm didn't feel like this at the beginning
My name is Debbie. I am a 40-year-old with big dreams and hopes for the future. Fresh out of college, I hope to use my knowledge and communication skills to inspire others to pursue their dreams no matter what. I am blessed to be living in a country where opportunities are endless; but sometimes as a disabled person, society puts limitations on us. I am here to push past the stereotypes, and allow people to see me as the unique individual than I am! You can contact
me anytime if you have any questions at: rollinDebbie70@gmail.com (yes I did recently change it)
